Faces
Monday, April 14th, 2003When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that a man can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him.
Albert Camus
Archive for April, 2003
rehearsals
Friday, April 11th, 2003Ever been in a play? or been part of a concert? You are given a single role amongst everyone else who are part of this wonderful play or concert. We all have our solos or soliloquies at our own times so each one of us practices our own part along with the ensembles… but our focus is really our own part, the part where you will be the only one playing or acting and everyone’s eyes will be focused on yours. You don’t really care what everyone thinks… just that one that matters to you sitting out there and watching you.
So you practice your part over and over again – because to you, that is the toughest part – that’s the only obstacle. Alone, when no one is watching, you practice with all your heart and emotions. You play or act parts over and over trying to make sure everything is perfect. You finally perfect it and become confident but then you know in the back of your mind that there are always things that go wrong when we least expect them to. This clouds your mind.
The day of the performance comes, you’re all dressed – ready to do your job. You do everything perfectly when the focus of the audience isn’t directly on you. The minutes tick by and now you’re counting the seconds – here it comes!
And you freeze.
You forget what you have been practicing and can do without even looking at the music or thinking about your lines. Your brain starts analyzing the situation. You are mesmerized by the audience. You are captivated and you have no where to go. You are given looks that you can’t comprehend at all. You wonder, what could they possible be thinking?
My sentiments, exactly.
The Sun
Friday, April 11th, 2003Finally, after three days of gloomy dark clouds rolling by our heads, the Sun will come out tomorrow. I can already see it now, it will be a good Friday. Our moods will have changed and we’ll look forward to things we haven’t been able to.
Moral of today? Don’t make assumptions, no matter how much you think they make sense. Because, after all: “Assumptions are the mother of all screw-ups.”
I’ve admit to make tons of dumb assumptions this semester that have allowed me to fail in achieving things that I wanted- but remember this, it is never too late. It is never too late to change things around 
and I mean it with all my heart, thoughts, and dedication. And yes, you know what that means. I know exactly what I will do and no assumption of mine will stop me this time.
Good night to you.
Light
Wednesday, April 9th, 2003After the couple of depressing blogs I made prior to this, I had a great dream last night. It wasn’t one of those dreams where you wake up and completely forget what the dream was about. It was one of those dreams where you wake up and remember all those you interacted with…
My spirits are high today and it was pretty low for the last couple of weeks.
Found this story on the net, thought it was a good one so, I decided to post it.
A Variation on “Footprints”
Author Unknown“Now imagine you and the Lord Jesus walking down the road together. For much of the way, the Lord’s footprints go along steadily, consistently, rarely varying the pace. But your prints are a disorganized stream of zigzags, starts, stops, turnarounds, circles, departures and returns.
For much of the way it seems to go like this. But gradually, your footprints come more in line with the Lord’s, soon paralleling His consistently. You and Jesus are walking as true friends.
This seems perfect, but then an interesting thing happens: your footprints that once etched the sand next to the Master’s are now walking precisely in His steps. Inside His larger footprints is the small ‘sandprint’, safely enclosed. You and Jesus are becoming one.
This goes on for many miles. But gradually you notice another change. The footprint inside the larger footprint seems to grow larger. Eventually it disappears altogether. There is only one set of footprints. They have become one.
Again, this goes on for a long time. But then something awful happens. The second set of footprints is back. And this time it seems even worse. Zigzags all over the place. Stops. Starts. Deep gashes in the sand. A veritable mess of prints.
You’re amazed and shocked. But this is the end of your dream. Now you speak. ‘Lord, I understand the first scene with the zigzags and fits and starts and so on. I was a new Christian, just learning. But You walked on through the storm and helped me learn to walk with you.’
‘That is correct.’
‘Yes, and when the smaller footprints were inside of Yours, I was actually learning to walk in Your steps. I followed You very closely.’
‘Very good. You have understood everything so far.’
‘Then the smaller footprints grew and eventually filled in with Yours. I suppose that I was actually growing so much that I was becoming like you in every way.’
‘Precisely.’
‘But this is my question. Lord.. Was there a regression or something? The footprints went back to two, and this time it was worse than the first.’
The Lord smiles, then laughs. ‘You didn’t know?’ He says. ‘That was when we danced’.”
I thought that was a cool story Doesn’t matter if you do or don’t hehe =P
comfort
Tuesday, April 8th, 2003Here’s my comfort for today, and wow, did I need it.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
-John 14:27
Anyways, I dunno what.
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Tuesday, April 8th, 2003deleted
for personal reasons
Personal Response:
If you’ve read this, don’t make any assumptions and think it was about you. It definitely wasn’t – I promise you that. 
