Archive for August, 2003
Sunday, August 31st, 2003
Yea so, I was planning on going to church today with Ben and was supposed to meet him at around 9:20am so he could drive us to West Merrit but the night before I set my alarm at exact 9:20am thinking… well, I guess I wasn’t thinking at all.
So I wake up by my alarm at 9:20am and slowly got out of bed cause I thought I had plenty of time until I had to go. So I grab my shower stuff and start heading over to the showers when it hit me: it wasn’t 8:20am which was exactly when I wanted to wake up for church. So I stood in the hall dumbfounded for couple of seconds… so I went back into my room and slept feeling a bit foolish.
I am so smart, aren’t I? =P
Okay so for today – I’ll be doing ‘work’ work (money work) as sysadmin for a little while before getting on top of some reading and trying to catch up with some classes (and let me tell you, it’s merely the second week of school but yet I feel so behind).
After that, we’re planning on playing Ultimate @ 9pm in the Burger Bowl… (why do they called the burger bowl … the burger bowl? It doesn’t even look like a bowl… not that I’d even put a burger in a bowl anyways!)
Official
(as far as no one telling me they have a problem with it is concerned)
Our KoreanNight Fall 2003 has been set to Friday September 12th, 2003!
Plans, times, dates, carpool, etc will be emailed out sometime this week just as long as I remember.
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Sunday, August 31st, 2003
So now I am really at a lost for words… I do not know what to think, my friends would just tell me to stop thinking about it but you know how that is…
I guess it’s about time I grow up on these kinds of situations. I honestly didn’t know what to expect, when this is the case, it usually turns out negatively so it was an unexpected expectation 
Okay so I thought the weekend would be just disastrous but it is turning out all right so far. Friday night we went to go watch Freddy vs. Jason with Chatty, Drew, and Dave… it was a hilarious movie and not so much of a horror. I thought they did a pretty good job with the production of the movie though – about 99% of the movie was completely expected though so it was hard for me to think that the movie was scary. The small theatre laughed 90% of the time and for the other 10% they were saying things like: “Don’t go out there, moron!” and the guy who was sitting on my left said “Are you serious!?” throughout the whole friggin’ movie and made his critical comments during the movie. It was fun
As for today (Saturday), I woke up around 11am and continued to sleep til noon. Had quick bite to eat at the SC before being active… holy- it was blazing out there. The walk from SC to west campus tired me out. But we ran around, kicking a soccer ball, throwing two frisbees, and throwing the football around for about 20-30minutes before we decided one of us would collapse cause of the heat. So we went inside, got a drink, then played foosball for a bit til the sweat evaporated. Then we went back out to SAC fields cause it wasn’t so sunny outside but just as we went out there, it was blazing again so we played around for 30min or so before splitting our ways.
Went over to Chris’s room and chilled there for a while – had some dinner around 5:30 and got back to my room around 6pm-ish. From that point til now – I haven’t done anything in particular as one would call productive but I didn’t want to do anything anyways so I got my way. 
Arg, I was supposed to do laundry tonight but I forgot… I’ll probably be doing laundry tomorrow after church sometime before 2pm cause I’ll be in Burger bowl playing Ultimate for a while – it’s a pickup game so just come on by if you wanna play some ultimate!
I’m going to sleep after a shower – I need to wake up in 7 or so hours.
I’m blinded; my hands are tensely outreached to try to find anything that would let me know that I still am. I finally feel something familiar and warm; a hand. With the aid of this unknown hand, I now feel relaxed and my worries disappear. This hand guided me even though I still could not see, I trusted it because it was leading me into a warmer and comfortable place. Now, here I am, with you.
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Friday, August 29th, 2003
Yea so I’m going to be in a careless and non-motivated mood for a VERY VERY long time.
1) That’s what I get for waiting…
2) “Patience is virtue” doesn’t seem to apply here
3) Doubts will only slow you down for no reason.
Wow, this was pathetic on my part :-/
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Friday, August 29th, 2003
so, there is a fine line in between sucking at a game and making a lot of mistakes during one… the 2003 GT Football team showed that not only is this line not even visible, but the two sides collided and became one.
Nonetheless, I will still support our Jackets even though we’ve basically lost the easiest game of the season except against Duke later in the semester. I have faith that our team will shock us at some point during this season and when that time comes, it would all be worth it
BYU defeats GT 24-13
This would be the first time we’ve lost a season opening within the past 4 seasons. First half was great – then BYU’s offense started to wear down our defense… so our offense didn’t have many chances to be on the field.
Oh… and we play Auburn next Saturday… ranked 6th… in the NATION, as Chatty put it
g’nite and sweet dreams
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Thursday, August 28th, 2003
So I was reading some old blogs that I backed up on the old site running off of alpha-digital.com and found this:
I keep saying on here “my mind is clouded“… let me attempt to explain:
You look at the sky on a beautiful and sunny day – you can see thin clouds high in the atmosphere that just patch up the sky and still lets plenty of sun shine through it. Sometimes, when a thicker patch of clouds slide in the way, the sun disappear for a while and it looks dark and gloomy.
Imagine this throughout the spherical Earth… and now imagine that a human mind can also be metaphorically spherical like the Earth- yet in this case, the clouds are actually thoughts and doubts and mental obstacles that sometime cover up great ideas or dreams or hopes or needs or wants.
My mind is clouded… What do I want? I can’t see very clearly – maybe, I can see perfectly clearly what I want but my mind doesn’t want me to believe that? Maybe I’m scared of what it might become if anything at all; scared of something that might not even happen. I wish I knew exactly what it is that is stopping me- give me something to evaluate!
Maybe that’s the one obstacle that I have to put my faith into dissolving- to take the leap no matter how bad, weird, crazy, or fun it might turn out.
Do I need encouragement? Yes, I think I do – without any sarcasms, nor jokes, nor too many other people getting involved in it. I don’t want attention for it- I am not an attention seeker, that’s the last thing I’d want at all- attention from a multitude of people would discourage me to no end.
Well, I am tired – I’m going to sleep. G’night and sweet dreams to you all.
There is no other way to explain this concept…and to this day, my thoughts are still the same but it shouldn’t be… I feel like such a child – there are so many more things that are necessary for me to do and I get overwhelmed.
Within the past two weeks, I have had couple of personal talks with someone that I did not know too well before this… He was asking for advice on what to do with a several different yet still interconnected situations he is currently in… I gave him some things to think about by giving him my personal opinions and what it would be like to take this one path compared to taking the other path. Interestingly enough, some of the situations that he is in also relate to several situations that I am in as well – which puts me in a bind since I’m not even sure what I should do about the situations either.
Fortunately enough, with my attempt to help him find a path suitable for what he wants – I thought up the most obvious and in the end, most beneficial advice that would resolve the situation almost instantaneously. The most difficult part of the process was saying it out loud because if I said it out loud then sooner or later, I will have to go through with it no matter what happens. It helped me look past my doubts and mental obstacles and see things clearly… my mind is so clear at that point when I am giving advice… then when I start thinking about my own situations – clouds come rolling back into the equation.
I just need to figure out how to clear my mind up for good. I am a patient person and I will await the day when I wake up knowing that things will be good, that clouds will roll out of my mental sphere, and I will be able to stare into the Sun with a satisfied smile on my face.
With less then 5 hours of sleep last night and considering that it is almost 2:30am – I am going to bed. I won’t be surprised if I wake up tomorrow and re-read my entry and find that it doesn’t make any sense whatsoever 
Good night.
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Tuesday, August 26th, 2003
Ugh, I just spent almost $200 in books and other stuff needed for just ONE class. I couldn’t use my own credit card because it got maxed out since I paid my tuition for the Fall. I hate college bookstores – they suck so much money without a good reason – it’s one of the dumbest things that I want to fix on every college campus. I am pretty sure that the publishers aren’t the ones jacking up the prices on books but the bookstores who buy cheap and sell high; they don’t have any work involved except stacking the books on the shelves and wait for the beginning of the semesters. There will come a time when this system will be changed for a more suitable position for the students and THEN the bookstores – not the other way around.
Yes so – the weekend went by pretty fast. Went to “On The Bricks” last Friday night after ordering some Chinese food at Dave/Scheibe’s place. Centennial Park was… PACKED. For the first couple of songs, we weren’t that close to the stage but we could hear the songs without much distortion. Then when we got closer, I felt the ground shake and the notes resonated a little too long in my ears. It was only $3 and it was a great concert.
Afterwards, we went back and chilled until we decided what we were going to do… We decided to go to Erika’s (Scheibe’s younger sister) party – we met some new people who went to GSU and had some interesting times there I was so tired since I woke up at like 8:30am that Friday morning that I fell asleep leaning against a bean bag chair – we stayed the night there.
Saturday was a daze – not sure why. I was tired from the night before and lacking much needed sleep… I don’t remember what I did exactly… see, my memory is going somewhere. I really don’t remember what I did… I think we threw the frisbee around til late at night or something. *shrug*
Sunday came around and I went to church with Ben, Jaeyun, Chris, and Stephanie – went to West Merrit Baptist Church. It was a smaller church but I guess that is what I liked about it. I prefer the church where you have a chance to get to know everyone as time goes along… Those contemporary churches are okay too except I would feel kind of intimidated, I guess – without knowing exactly why.
Yea so I have ECE lab tomorrow – I hate labs but I guess there’s no way to not do labs if you want to graduate.
It’s 1:30am – I am tired – I’m going to read some and fall asleep. G’nite.
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