confused.
Wednesday, October 15th, 2003you just can’t help but have doubts about almost everything…
it just can’t be helped whatsoever.
im sleeping, have a good night.
Archive for October, 2003
volunteering…
Thursday, October 9th, 2003so I’ve decided to volunteer my leet coding skills (heh =P) so I can help Troy with his latest personal project (web site) with some other people. Although I won’t be responsible for the frontend of the project nor the content – I’ll be handling all the behind the scenes stuff like database implementation and administrative tools that’ll make keeping the site up to date fairly easy. I won’t mention the site name until it is launched… Troy is really stressing that the launch date needs to be Nov. 1 (I think he just picked it… and is planning to stick with it as a goal.) I think with some dedication, the site will have a lot of potential… I will probably working on some of it when I go back home for fall break – I’ll be able to code on my laptop and test/debug no problem on it. Heh, I sure hope I don’t let the team down – eek.
Oh well – I’m still working on the DML web site… it’s coming along okay – not the kind of designs I usually do but I guess that’s a good thing. The design I am supposed to model is …. way to simple but it is one of those designs that have aesthetics but works as it keeps the site really simple. This design – I’m trying to keep really simple but it’s taking me so long hehe. Maybe I should reorganize Truepixel Development and deploy it. I have so many great design ideas… but not enough time to implement them :-/ sucks.
School work has flooded out of my week now… for the most part, anyways. I still have a lot of stuff on my mind. I have a little bit more motivation (thanks for the prayers, to those who do 
)
Have a good Fall break everyone!
questions thing..
Wednesday, October 8th, 2003LAYER ONE
– Name: John
– Nicknames: Yellow Jello, FAB, Rice Bowler, Cheeky Monkey.. etc
– Birth date: 12/25
– Birthplace: In-Chon, South Korea
– Current Location: Atlanta, GA
– Eye Color: It looks black but it’s really brown
– Hair Color: Black
– Height: 5’6″
– Righty or Lefty: righty
– Zodiac Sign: capricorn
– AIM: alphaGTs
– E-Mail: me@johnhwang.net
LAYER TWO
– Your heritage: Korean
– The shoes you wore today: Columbia Sandals… uhh, it’s brown
– Your weakness: motivation
– Your fears: those ‘special’ relationships – no idea why though
– Your perfect pizza: Schlotzsky’s Spicy BBQ Chicken Pizza (yum)
– Favorite band: don’t really have one
– Goal you’d like to achieve: graduate Tech
LAYER THREE
– Your most overused phrase on AIM: sup
– Your first thoughts waking up: “What time is it?”
– Your best physical feature: penguin scar… haha
– Your bedtime: 12am-4am (somewhere in between)
– Your most missed memory: i miss being a kid… just a kid
LAYER FOUR
– Pepsi or Coke: Coke
– McDonald’s or Burger King: none of these
– Single or group dates: SINGLE DATES! I can’t stress this enough…
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: none of these
– Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
– Cappuccino or coffee: I don’t care for coffee unless I need it
LAYER FIVE
– Smoke: Do I want to die early? No.
– Cuss: Not as often as I used to
– Take a shower everyday: 99% of the time
– Have a crush(es): Did… maybe still do but…
– Do you think you’ve been in love: … I hope not
– Want to go to college: Already here
– Liked high school: It was a bit bumpy but fond memories
– Want to get married: Yes
– Believe in yourself: Not everytime…
– Get motion sickness: No
– Think you’re attractive: perhaps as a Goldfella =P
– Think you’re a health freak: No
– Get along with your parents: Most of the time
– Like thunderstorms: The ones that seem to knock out eletricity, yes.
– Play an instrument: Violin… haven’t played in over 2 years
LAYER SIX: In the past month…
– Drank alcohol: yes
– Smoked: no
– Done a drug: no
– Had Sex: no
– Made out: no
– Gone on a date: no
– Gone to the mall?: yes
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
– Eaten sushi: i don’t think so… maybe
– Been on stage: no
– Been dumped: no
– Gone skating: no
– Made homemade cookies: no
– Gone skinny-dipping: no
– Dyed your hair: no
– Stolen anything: no
LAYER SEVEN: Ever?
– Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
– Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: not extremely
– Been caught “doing something”: uhh, something can be so many different things
– Been called a tease: no
– Gotten beaten up: no
– Shoplifted: no
– Changed who you were to fit in: I think I used to… not anymore
LAYER EIGHT
– Age you hope to be married: whenever age I am when I find my one and only
– Numbers and Names of Children: 2… as for names, my wife’s opinions will matter most definitely
– Describe your dream wedding: I never dreamt about a wedding before…
– How do you want to die: … what? uhh… without regrets and having fulfilled my happiness
– Where you want to go to college: Georgia Institute of Technology – already here though
– What do you want to be when you grow up: my own boss with employees under me
– What country would you most like to visit: France?
LAYER NINE: In a guy/girl?
– Best eye color?: don’t matta one bit
– Best hair color?: dark
– Short or long hair: don’t matta one bit
– Height: don’t matta one bit
– Best weight: … uhh, anything in between the two extremes
– Best articles of clothing: dress pants
– Best first date location: something fun then dinner for talk
– Best first kiss location: at her door steps
LAYER TEN
– Number of drugs taken illegally: Zero
– Number of people I could trust with my life: 5 definite and maybe one more
– Number of CDs that I own: couple
– Number of piercings: Zero
– Number of tattoos: Zero
– Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: about a dozen or maybe a bit less times
– Number of scars on my body: one scar on my left leg, can’t see that well though
– Number of things in my past that I regret: Three
game and new site.
Monday, October 6th, 2003So this past Saturday was Tech’s football game against NCSU.
I thought NCSU was ranked going into the game (so I didn’t even check) but apparently they are no longer ranked in the Top 20… or we kicked them off 
The game was awesome… I was cheering the whole time and by time we sang the Budweiser song – I was about 95% sure we were going to win. Fourth quarter came around and… whew, gave me a scare when they drove down for a touchdown merely after 2 minutes of getting the ball back.
We spelled out “WHACK THE PACK!” (without spaces) this time – we had to start painting up at 10:30am! Geez, I didn’t even have to set an alarm, I got enough phone calls to wake me up. Someone remind me… we need more yellow clown wigs
I’ve realized there have been numerous other groups around the stadium that have been trying to imitate the Goldfellas tradition… there’s always that multicolored ‘GO JACKETS’ group in front of the swarm. I also saw some yellow painted fellas in the second level of the North side stadium with white hats on… couldn’t see what they were trying to spell out. But the Goldfellas props go to the 10 or so guys Scots that dressed up in the green kilts and all – now, that was original… stop trying to imitate the Goldfellas… we’ve been around for over half a decade and the tradition will continue as long as I am near Tech A big thanks to the dedicated 10 or so goldfellas for showing up and/or supporting the goldfellas.
Also… Troy told me my site sucked – heh, I know I know! As soon as I get some free time, I’ll work on the new design… although I am afraid that won’t be for a long while :-/
needs.
Sunday, October 5th, 2003I’ve figured it out.
I am in need of tremendous amount of positive motivation. I am not sure how or what but it needs to happen soon or I’m afraid all my goals will crumble down upon me… even my dreams.
I also believe at the same time – that I have all the motivation I need in the world to do anything that I want because of my renewed faith in God. You wouldn’t believe it – but my faith has expanded so much… and there are only a few people I have to thank for that. They will be thanked later… each and every one of them in my special way. They have held my hand and lead me to the path. To think that I’ve been lost for so long… just looking back at all those times, it makes me want to cry but yet also smile widely because I know what path to take.
I’m not saying taking this path will be easy… but I guess now, it is merely the matter of how I take on this path and where I come out. I am scared of this path – I am scared of the future.
Maybe it’s a test… all I need to do is face it and come through with it?
here’s a big *sigh* from me – I’m found but I feel lost within being found.
Good night.
you know…
Thursday, October 2nd, 2003the sad thing is, having this blog window open for about two days and not having enough time to type even one tiny little sentence til now…
welcome to my world
have a good day
