music
October 31st, 2003 | by john |music used to play a big role in my life in middle school and high school – I always looked forward to Orchestra class where we had time to just… play music. I never really felt any kind of pressure during orchestra class even audition day because I knew I would be able to play well either because I practiced enough or just because I knew I could.
What amazed me about orchestra was not how I or anyone else played… but how we all played – trying so hard to keep the right tempo and making sure every single note is perfectly in tune. Wow – “perfectly in tune” – when your orchestra plays a difficult piece and we are rehearsing the climatic part… and that exact moment where we all play perfectly in tune; so amazing. It never ceased to give me goosebumps when our director stops us in shear amazement – our accomplishment.
Concerts were the best of them all – although I knew I messed up a lot more during concerts then in rehearsals… waving through the entire piece – we finally get to the finale and with one tuned unison note everyone stops playing – our bows in perfect stillness as we await our director’s arms to come down. Sometimes, he’d test us and held his arms in the air for minutes before putting them down; so everyone would have to hold their instruments still – sometimes forgetting to breathe due to the excitement of the piece and the wanting to hear the audience’s reaction.
I miss those times so badly. I haven’t played my violin in over 2 years – during fall break, I went back and opened my two violin cases. The smell of the rosin and the polished wooden body of my two violins brought back memories. They were so out of tune 
I didn’t get a chance to play them because it was late at night and I didn’t want to wake anyone up. I plucked little tunes with it – especially the melodies that I remembered from the hundreds of different pieces I played during middle school and high school.
I was going to sign up for GTO last year but I dropped it because it would’ve been just too stressful on my schedule and plans. I should still join it though and see how it goes one semester… *shrug*
I’m planning on buying a guitar soon – I’ll be learning it just because I wanted to learn it for a while but haven’t even thought about it until lately.
hmmm, music is so good… so good
