my digitized life // john hwang

week almost ova…

So the Cubs are heartbroken… and so are the Sox – it would have been great if the World Series consisted of these two teams; considering they have fought hard … tough loss for both of these teams. Cubs lose because of one of their own fans interfered (not totally true but it could’ve gone another way if he outfielder caught the foul ball) and the Sox losing because of a single-run homer bottom of the 11th inning.

I guess that’s one of my fears… losing something in the last minute. Working so hard to acheive something then later find out near the finish line that everything you’ve worked for… all that time you’ve spent – is wasted.

Now I think about it – it’s a bad analogy – comparing a game like baseball to what I am most concerned with at this stage in life since each respective teams will have other chances the season after until… the end of baseball – which would have to be if the United States is taken over somehow and professional sports is officially banned from the country … or something (wow, what a tangent I go on =P)

If you know me – you would know I don’t have many distinct fears… I can’t get scared easily of things like ghosts, animals, things jumping out from around the corner, etc… Basically 90% of my fears are just psychological. The ‘What if’s…’ scare me quite a bit. What if a family member or a friend got hurt? What if I fail to reach my goal… my dreams? What if I can’t find my one and only? What if I fail my faiths?

Any kind/type of failure was something I’m familiar with – I’ve gotten quite used to it here – c’est la vie… I guess.

I’ll still be smiling and laughing all the way because no matter, what I know is – I will succeed with my goals. Simple as that – there is no way anything or anyone can deter me from going after what I enjoy doing and want to do in the future. And besides, frowning and acting depressed around others just sucks the life out of being around them – just keep smiling