a blog of sorts that is never consistently updated
Just an addendum to the g33kl0g 
-su-2.05b# uptime
3:38PM up 216 days, 2:01, 1 user, load averages: 0.01, 0.05, 0.01ALPHA Uptime
Am I going to celebrate if it reaches “up 356 days” ?
You betcha! 
(An afterthought: I probably just jinxed it right there… but wanted to check up on this because apparently there was a power outtage at the DC but from what I can see, power was still on in the area where this server was yet the network was down.)
Here’s some inspiration!
When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that a man can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him.
Albert Camus
It’s storming down here in Atlanta… again. Looks like a very strong T’storm moving from the southwest.
When I was driving down from Charlotte last Sunday, the storm in South Carolina was annoying. There were periods where the only thing smearing my view of the road was from the tires of the front car distributing the water on the interstate onto my car. There were periods where, it was raining so hard that I couldn’t see but a blur of random red lights and darkness in front of me. There were also small hills and valleys of the highways… I always had to get a good grip on the steering wheel as I was driving through the troughs so my car wouldn’t hydroplane much. I don’t remember personally driving through such a storm before… Surprisingly though… it still took about the same amount of time it would have taken if the night was completely dry. And no, I wasn’t dangerously speeding or anything – most of the time, I followed the speed of the traffic which slowed during torrential rains and sped up when no rain was falling.
Some people are afraid to drive on the Interstate… I find it more relaxing to drive on the interstate than within the streets of Atlanta or any city. It’s the frequent stops and extra attention that is required within the streets that I just don’t like. I just prefer the continuous motion of a highway system… although traffic in general is a pain.
Good night.
I wanted to write something inspirational … it’s been three days of leaving this window open and not knowing what to write. I have no inspiration left.
I also have no motivation left to do much except think and this seems to only be limited to my options which can be counted with the fingers of only one hand, well… even less than that.
If only I can grab onto something and cling to it so my mind isn’t always focused on stressful situations. Which reminds me, I am always stressed. I am stressed even in my dreams and/or nightmares. Worries during the day shadow me into my nights. Then, I wake up to those worries on a daily basis with the afterthoughts …
It’s sad but it’s true.
Never know what God is going to throw at you; he’s a great pitcher in a baseball game that is life. I’m mistaken, of course, as God’ intentions are not to strike you out. His benevolence is inspiring yet sometimes, I can’t seem to describe it with any other word than ‘ironic’.
God threw a pretty nasty knuckle ball at me which lasted two weeks. I am still breathing; my head is still thinking away; I am still here. He’s got a pretty cryptic smile; as if he knew I would finally grasped his intentions. I went on with faith and swung away! The ball grazed the top edge of the bat and flung off far behind me. I half expected the bat to break off; shattering whatever confidence I have left in myself – losing whatever I gained in the first eighteen years of my life with one swing. But no, the bat reverberated in my hands. It was close to the sweet spot, a centimeter lower toward the center of the bat and I wouldn’t have felt anything at all. It would have felt like a newly paved road.
I have to readjust my helmet, grab the neck of the bat with my left hand, and tightly adjust my right hand on top of the left. Then close my eyes and twist the bat hard around my grasp to at least temporarily increase the friction; now, be still and open my eyes. This will be God’s 8,114th pitch to me; he never gives up on me. I’m not going to give up hitting one out of the park one of these days.
God’s trying to teach me something. Actually, I think he’s been trying to teach me something for the past several years but I haven’t grasped it yet. Perhaps, I did grasp it but don’t want to embrace it? No, that’s not possible – how would I deny such didacticism?
My faith has diminished – most likely due to the choices I have made this semester and the last. I tried to keep myself busy and surely enough, I’ve succeeded with flying colors. If I had to give you a number, it seems to be down to about 40%. My faith was strongest during the first semester of my Junior year. Then, a lot of different friends reached out and held onto me… as circumstances changed, I’ve pushed them away. Who can explain it? No one. It’s really an automated defense mechanism, something not innate but just maybe because of history. I never let anyone or let myself get personal anymore. My outer shell remains intact. God is the only one who knows me well; there is no question about that. Let only he make judgement on me.
This Golden retriever’s name is Rookie. His trainer is Carolyn Scott.
This is like a canine talent showcase… Rookie definitely deserves some high marks for his performance here!
If you don’t see why I am making references to Travolta after watching the video, then it’s pretty obvious you didn’t have sound when you watched it.
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Watch Rookie show off John Travolta (4.30MB)
(For the full effect, turn on sound…)
Wow, can’t compete with the Japanese when it comes to games.
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Hand DDR-type Arcade (5.77MB)
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