Excruciating honesty and openness.
January 19th, 2007 | by john |On here, I am a casual yet careful blogger. Some may even accuse me of being a liar by omission for this blog because I choose my words and diction delicately as possible when I type. There isn't just one reason; there are hundreds of small and big reasons. One of them that I freely admit is my personal loathing of drama and controversy. Another I admit (cautiously) is my dislike of attention by a group of people.
Agreeably, my dislike of attention is ironic seeing as how public this is but my response to that is that I am not blogging for you or anyone else specifically; I am blogging for myself. The most fun I have about this is when I read my own writing from years ago; it's like digging through and finding home videos and pictures taken of you when you were growing up, it's a personal goldmine. I also tend to remain very vague and include things that totally do not make any sense (no, the 3.14 there does not indicate GPA) to anyone but myself and it brings fond memories back and I'm chuckling at it right now as I type this. I also use strange metaphorical stories to try to explain what I may be going through. Yes, I agree it's childish yet it's because I don't like being open with anyone that I do not think genuinely cares.
So… I write a lot of posts that I do not 'publish' and therefore are invisible to prevent what I mentioned in the first paragraph. I decided to substitute all the specific information (while maintaining the integrity of my thoughts and real-life aspect of each entry) and post them at a separate site and blog. It won't be impossible to identify the other blog but highly improbable. If you find it, don't tell me. I will be more comfortable not knowing you know.
